No matter how hard I try,
The knot never untwines.
All I want is the release,
I envy those that can.

My heart is a valve,
Tightly shut and un-opening.
Pain goes in, tears should come out.

Each day it comes undone.
I feel like the chaos is coming.
To lose control is to be vulnerable.

I'm scared of feeling,
the world is my worse nightmare.