I'm indecisive.
On whether or not I should write this.

Could I fight it?
Could I change?

All our plans.
All arranged.

You're deranged.
And I'm scared.

You seem to call.
When you seem to care.

You say you listen.
You say you hear.

But are you here,
When I wipe away my tears?

And all the years that have flown by.
When you used to see me.

And I'm blinded now.
Hard to see what I want to be.

And I miss the way you used to be.
And I miss the old you.

I miss all the times.
All the times I would think things through.

Walking down this lonely path.
In my heart I feel a lonely wrath.

A pain I have never felt inside.
When you're not here by my side.

But I need you.
And though I try.

Though I try to make things right.
You say that I'm always wrong.
We always seem to fight.

Though tonight.
I hope to see you.

And if you don't show.
I will show all who care
All who care to know.

How I feel.
Feel inside.

Feeling down.
Broken pride.

Sorry that I wasn't the best.
Sorry that I always lied.

I never seemed to care.
I never seemed to be there.

And now I'm scared.
I'm somewhere out here stranded.

I wish I could say I had things planned.
Though I never planned this.

And I always say I'm there.
Always there close to you.

Hoping that you miss me.
Are you hoping that I miss you too?

Ripped out.
Broken heart.
Hard to fix.
It's torn into two.

Hoping I get to see.
See a day.
A day spent with you.

And it is hard to say.
And it is hard to write this.

But I miss you.
And only you.

I'm sorry I'm indecisive.