I look back at the past and wonder
Why had I not forseen
Why had I not predicted all the pain and suffering that has plagued me these last two months

But I realize that one must learn from others
One has to experience pain before better future choices can be made
The vast amount of information I have digested is far too valuable to wish away

In the end, everything happens for a reason
And I respect and honor my God, be Him Buddha or Jesus Christ, for teaching me this life long lesson