heavy heart
a circle full of greed
seven sins have been committed
only i remember three
first might it be
i was full of pride
pride for my school
pride for my life
pride for the girl who held my hand that night
sloth of the second
i neglected the chores of my work
the dinosaur of life
laziness and procrastination - still in dirt
i have not done what needed to be done
instead walked away to a place
where i myself would regret ever entering
and lastly it was greed
greed for the kisses of her lips
greed for the beer tossed down my throat
greed for the obtaining of what then was popular
greed for the chain of cigarettes
what i don't remember is the lust that followed
the lust that was so deep she had to explain it for me
what i don't remember is the envy of another man
wanting the lust of a woman who stayed with me
that envy would have saved me
if it were not for the pride that followed
the man who showed envy had now shown pride -
- a pride that he did not need the lust of a woman
who would stay with me
and it was gluttony that wanted her to conquer me
gluttony and wrath mixed into an ugly song
a song that she sang in my ears while she poured beer down my throat
it burned
oh hell it burned
i don't remember a time where it didn't burn
wrath that he showed pride when she wanted envy
gluttony that he did not give her lust when she had shown sloth
towards the problems between them
and i was in the middle
a battle of greed and pride
of wrath and envy
sloth
gluttony
and she took away the thing i had wanted to save
not for her no
she did not deserve it
no matter how much i wanted to think so
because i was the one to blame
because i could have done something
yet i did nothing