I don't know why I can't understand this.
Being able to help other people but I can't help myself with my own shit.
I know it seems ridiculous.
No one seems to understand my explanations.
Dragging on my two legs, struggling to walk through this, been wanting to runaway from this but I know now that I might be over this.
Not sure what do and what to say, the only way I could express myself I pushed it away.
Maybe now I could figure out a way, scroll back to the beginning but start a new story, forgetting is the first step, regretting is the last step but I'm well over what's mandatory, maybe this is time to actually progress a new me, becoming who I want believing I am free.
Maybe I should stop wearing my watch so I can't tell the time anymore, at least then I can run things how I want to, creating my own time zone.