I thought I was done writing poems for a long while
After all my lady left me and still hasn't returned
Some days I keep myself busy
Finding things to do that seem to interest me
And then there are times when I just can't help it
A single thought of the woman I made leave
Brings tears to my eyes when I thought there were none left
Then I go back to thinking of how I can make amends
After all I have sent a hundred texts and e-mails with songs
I have tried a million times to call
She just doesn't seem to the same girl I married
The one who always forgave me for my mistakes
That beautiful girl who became a great mother
The one I thought I would be with forever
But I continued to not believe her stories
I was jealous thinking I was no longer important
I made her leave this once happy home
It's almost four weeks and I can't leave her alone
I guess I was to intent on getting her back
I should have just left her alone to sort things out
As I sit here alone for another night
A process server hands me some papers
It's a restraining order sent by the Mrs.
Now I have to avoid any kind of contact or be in violation
Did crying to my wife make me seem weak
Should I had just pretended that I didn't care
Hoping in time she would miss me enough to reconsider
Or try something that would make her jealous
Now as I sit here finishing this poem
My thoughts are consumed by my jealous mind
Is she coming home or with a new man
Those are thoughts I can't comprehend
But this waiting is like a slow death
And it hasn't even been a month yet