What do I feel? I don't know
But when I know it's hard to show
I hide it inside so I don't look weak
There are times I do not sleep
My mind is filled with so many thoughts that my mind goes blank

I know that doesn't make since but it is true
My mind is filled with so many things but I forget once it comes to you

I don't like smiling but when you are around my smile appears
I have a hard time saying I love you because that is one of my fears
I don't talk much but there are reasons why
It's because I hold so much in side

I don't think I'm that pretty
And I know for a fact that I'm not perfect
And for some reason people think I'm worthless
People told me that so much I'm starting to believe it to


I try so hard to makes things right
I try so hard to help people fight their fights
But I guess I am no help at all
Sometimes I feel like hiding in a bathroom stall

I have been called ugly and fat I also
I have been called **** and ***** but there is only so much more

I have punched walls that left scars on my knuckles

I don't like to believe it when people say 'I love you'
I also don't believe it when people say 'I'm never leaving you'
Because I just see that as a lie
I see everyone leaving my life just as they came in
I see them leaving without leaving a note or even a pen
  

I can never think of a subject to talk about with you
But that's ok because you are the same way too


I wonder if you have second thoughts
And if it will always be this rough
I never thought loving someone could be this tough

I get butterflies when I see you
When your around me I get excited too
I never realized loving you so much
Could make me doubt it

I don't want to worry about finding someone I love
I worry that I will never be enough

The thought of losing you makes me break down
How can I be happy and yet doubt you will always be around

Don't think for a second I am doubting your love
I just feel
Everything is going to fall apart
How can something be so good without it ending in a broken heart

In the beginning I thought it was fake

I couldn't help but think loving you is a mistake

The question is
Do you care?
Do you even know, that I never want to let you go?
But will you always be there?
Will you ever let me go?

If I cried
Would you take all the pain away?
If for any reason you lied
Would I still want you to stay?

My love for you is strong
I can not forget
Some people might say I'm making a mistake
I hope loving you won't be something I regret


Your part

    I hear your problems and wipe away your tears
I love you with all my heart and that's my biggest fear

I can't get you out of my head
Everywhere I look
In the sky or on the ground
I notice your always around

You stole my heart mind and soul
With you I want to grow old


Your a girl I just met
Your just my friend I said to myself
Every time we meet I take a deep breath

When she looks at me like that I feel like I'm in the spot

I catch her eyes sometimes
Believing my own lies that she feels something to

I take my chance to get one quick glance

I look up at her and I notice she is already staring back at me
She looks away and feel my heart skip a beat
I let out the breathe I was holding
And I feel my walls slowly unfolding

One day I came up to you and tried to talk
You looked at me then looked back at your work

You started writing without saying a word
For a week I tried to get you to talk

On Monday you looked at me and smiled
For a while there I thought you were a mute child
I said hi and you answered back
When I heard you speak I almost had a heart attack