Head is in overdrive
but that's just a fantasy because
my reality
has stripped me bare
of all I once shared.

Melancholic cloud in my mind,
slice it open,
give me peace
from thoughts I can no longer keep.

Keep me up,
ups & downs,
the fall lasts an eternity.
What a monotony
to feel free for a time-
short & delicate,
a slippery climb
that always secures the fall.

Want to **** myself
but don't know how,
how to save those I love from feeling.
There's no reason to care,
nothing can save me
& feelings are *******, anyway.

Wish I had a lock on my door.
I'd feel safer in my solitude
& death may come easier
when I know I can't let anyone in.

My peace is your pain
& without me,
your life may just be
a little easier.

Everyone's the same
& no matter how hard I try,
I can't get away
from the disease.