I thought I could grasp you
and end up feeling nothing.
I thought I could touch all the
moments that felt like sand and
mold them into something easy; easy to
bury and never dig up again.  

I rushed to your shores, eager to get it
over with; feel what I needed to
feel and walk back to my life
without a sting.
but my god, the waves came
and they wouldn't stop.
they pushed me so far into you,
I didn't know whether to cry for help
or let them soak me up
until they’d had enough of my saltwater
heart.

I was 300 ft. deep.
and I’m sure you could
find scraps of me littered far  
inside in your oceans.

I thought I could grasp you and feel nothing.
Instead, you sunk me and made
sure I felt everything.

thank you.