In my head I’m on my knees Hands over my ears Trying to block the voices in my head From yelling, From screaming at me.
But you can’t block out voices that are within, So they continue this racket of torture This monumental mass of self destruction “You’ll never be good enough!” “You can’t do this!” Their voices hoarse from yelling at me Because they do it all the time. And I want to give up, oh god, I want to give up.
I’m spiraling down down down Into a sea of my own creation, Made of tears and regret and wasted hope I don’t know how much longer I can stay on my knees Praying to a god I don’t think exists. Trying to halt what cannot be stopped Just like you can’t stop a heart from breaking.
“Nothing is wrong with the educational system” They say But how can that be true When there are countless other kids Just like me? Losing themselves to numbers, to statistics, to tests, to homework Never knowing how to breath, Because the weight of school bears down on them Like Atlas, they try to hold the world. But no one can hold the world, And so they’re crushed under it.