I wish I could remember
I wish i could recall
But no matter how hard I try
There is nothing at all

I try to think back
And not look away
But I blocked out the past
And that's how my heart wants it to stay

If I let my gaurd down
And glimpse at the memories
I scare myself so well
They are are so horrid; When did life become hell?

I try to think of a time
When all I could so was smile
But it's been so long
I can't think of when I was that happy.

I remember all the bad
When all I want is the good
So I recreate a picture
Make my past a falsehood

I try and try
But I can only make my past a lie
Taking bits and pieces
And pasting them together

I'm scrap-booking my memories
In little bits
Trying to make the best of it
Make my life fit.