Sometimes my mind get's filled with so many things that its hard to think straight.
These thoughts have a way of pushing out everything in my life until there isn't much left.
Sometimes it gets hard to see straight, and I feel like my insides are going to cave in.
Sometimes I drink too much too often in hopes numbing the pain will help get me through the day
And sometime things become far too much, way too fast and my head spins and my stomach swirls and my eyes lose focus and suddenly I don't know were I am who I am or what I want to become.
I'm not a people person.
I'm not friendly, or loving and I think far too much into everything to believe a word someone says.
Because of this I'm cold.
Because of this I make things worse for myself
Because of this I lost too much
Because of this I am what I am today.
No I don't love it
But one day I hope I learn to live with it.