I know when I'm starting to lose myself, when i start saying "I'm use to it". But doesn't matter, because i can't win this battle within me, i can't win the battle here and so on. Why? Because i lost my way, i don't want to go on anymore. I'm lost, in my own mind, own world. Own thoughts of depression. Yeah, just useless for me to carry on, i won't make it even if i tried. Don't worry though, I'll get over it somehow, maybe the next day. Like i said, "I'm use to it". Smiling outside, but crushing, losing, and falling apart.
I'm starting to lose myself.