I've gone to look for myself
A huge part of my life is lost at sight
Its become quite normal losing
my mind night from night

If this is a curse its one of the worst
feeling everything so deeply
I've given up on
my chance to say goodbye simply because
i won't accept that you don't need me

Physically your gone but
It feels like you still walk beside me
I lost myself in you but your gone
how am i suppose to find me

What can my heart possible do
Maybe its true that i didn't need
you to be the one to pull the trigger
Because Life is killing me anyway

Maybe its true that i find understanding
through pain
A long confusing process of figuring who
or what has become of me through years
of change

I keep my shadow company
Wishing it was an actually being
To validate my thoughts
Drifting towards the fade
of my dark
and they say pain
is art

Pain is violent when its
silent
that's my reason for sharing
Pain goes with my body
Pain is what i am wearing