it's the fact everything
makes you nervous.
or upset
or scared
or a combination of many
it's the tightness
that builds in your chest
like a rope
constricting a knot in your chest
it's the endless overthinking
and constant second guessing
the late night
tossing in turning in bed
as you reanalyze over everything
it's the sound of your heartbeat
going faster and faster
until you think it's going to run through your chest
it's the fact
everything seems overwhelming and draining
after the attack
and it leaves you
feeling tired and restless and even hopeless
it's the long lasting fear
of messing something up
or damaging something/someone
close to you
no matter how little or big
and the worst part of it all ?
sometimes,
not only you never see it coming
but other people won't even notice it