I Smile

I smile We laugh and talk of the usual things Summer, Fall, Winter to Spring I see you as more You see me as well So we're together, blossoming with love I smile I can't help it! There's something in your eyes I trust you with myself You trust me back We now have a bond, untouchable I give to you, you give to me We complete each other it seems I smile Doubts. Suddenly you're leaving Nothing to be done I dream and pray that you'll find a way You wonder if I'll ever betray That's something I would never do Your doubts and distrust My fears and panic We are apart I smile You are not leaving, no And even if you were, so? Can't love break through anything? I see that without you I am not whole Part of me is gone I'm lonely without you You feel the same? Then together again, we're glad I smile Now we take it one step further You hold me, as I hold you Never let this moment end I pray Then you surprise me A kiss So simple, yet so wonderful Another, more, and longer I feel the bond grow so much stronger So strong in fact, and everlasting I start to doubt I smile I feel I must, for your sake If you detect anything amiss You would be hurt beyond belief But still this persistant nagging, *Too intense, too much pressure Are you sure he* loves *you? Do you really* love him? I smile Yet you see right through it all You know something is gone Something is lost You prod a little, and out comes too much We can't be together Living this lie *I don't love you, you don't love me How childish do you want to be? To believe in something you've never felt.* I see your eyes fill with tears Of anger and distrust and sorrow I see this pain and can no longer bear it Anymore I smile For your sake Maybe if everything seems alright to me You will heal faster I see you grieving, as though someone died I want to run to you, To hold you To comfort and tell you I feel the same way! .... But if I do, won't that just undo all of the Acting, Protecting, and Careful avoidance of your eyes That I've been suffering through Only to try to help you? So though it hurts more than words could say, Though everything in me longs for us again, Though all I want is your arms and heart, I stand tall, Act normal, And Smile

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