Is this worth it?
To me, yes.
But who am I kidding myself?
The ball's in your court.
It always has been,
An I'm sitting on the bench dying for a chance to take control.
Do you know that I can't leave?
Even if I try?
Because for some odd reason
All I want is you.
All I need you.
Yeah, only you.
Never been one to be alone, but here I am,
Just myself for months,
Passing through the weeks just to make it to the days when I can see you.
Take a look at these words.
All about you.
You.
You.
You.
At least on the surface.
Could be some shitty metaphor to describe how self-interested I am, for so strongly desiring you.
Just so damn frustrating,
But momma always told me "life isn't fair",
And with all the stories of rape and child abuse and natural disasters headlining the papers, I know she's so right.
It's not that God enjoys taking a shit on His creations,
But let me ask you this.
Can pleasure come without pain?
No.
A virgin screams before she sighs.
A mother bears pain to birth her baby.
And if I didn't have to work so hard for you, would it be worth it?