Is this worth it?

To me, yes.

But who am I kidding myself?

The ball's in your court.

It always has been,

An I'm sitting on the bench dying for a chance to take control.

Do you know that I can't leave?

Even if I try?

Because for some odd reason

All I want is you.

All I need you.

Yeah, only you.

Never been one to be alone, but here I am,

Just myself for months,

Passing through the weeks just to make it to the days when I can see you.

Take a look at these words.

All about you.

You.

You.

You.

At least on the surface.

Could be some ****** metaphor to describe how self-interested I am, for so strongly desiring you.

Just so **** frustrating,

But momma always told me "life isn't fair",

And with all the stories of **** and child abuse and natural disasters headlining the papers, I know she's so right.

It's not that God enjoys taking a **** on His creations,

But let me ask you this.

Can pleasure come without pain?

No.

A ****** screams before she sighs.

A mother bears pain to birth her baby.

And if I didn't have to work so hard for you, would it be worth it?