More anxieties and an awareness of past mistakes.
I don't know how I'd cope,
And what do I gain?
i figured you weren’t that interested
I'm buried in lies,
yours and mine
In thoughts that have my heart in a knot.
I've been lucky
1:11am
just hold myself tight,

but all things must come to an end
Lost in my own head
yet people seem to admire the fire in my eyes,
you never looked back
Being paralysed by grief as memories of all our stupid activities flood in.
Comfortably lying on my bed,
i still don’t know you although
Wishing that I saw it coming.
except this time i take the blame
one day you could
but i think im wrong

although you thought you did

My voice in my head is all I can hear...
I didn't even realize my poker face and empty heart.
i knew all along this would be my fate
And lost in my own head.
Won't Let Love Hold Me Down
my heart startled and died for a second
to this day i don’t know if your love was real
I've got me and me alone forever and always.
not even love since I deserve the frown,

i m p o s s i b i l i t y
I wish I had you here, but it turns out I’m writing another sad love poem
for fear that I might know,

I hope maybe then, I'd be man enough to adopt his values.
I'm thinking for **** sakes,

plagued
as I meet someone new,
what if
the next you're gone

what if
for letting myself get hurt

is about the love that I've so longingly hidden,
I hope I didn't play with your heart like a crime,
Losing a loved one...
be here with me

Today I realized nothing can hold me down,
Knowing that my father's gone,
I'm willing to admit an amount more than I've been given,
as good as your act
time went by
I honestly don't know how I'd cope,
Wishing I had made the dreams we shared become a reality earlier.
Being unable to breathe as I feel regret overwhelm me,
Oh, I've been lucky -

But I cannot,
I disappear like the fog that vanishes then appears,
year after year it’s all the same

where doors are locked and walls are dark

Maybe that's why God has been so kind to me.
and you were the one i wanted to share it all with
I don't know how I'd cope,
i’m sad but also liberated
wondering
My favourite songs blaring in my ear,
So I guess I'm still here,
I've been sitting here,
Just a question
at my worst I feel nothing not even love.
what love looks like -
and i no longer have you by my side
what used to be?
forever left
you are good with your words
I'd like to sleep,
but nothing can be glued
i'm plagued
Only expressing thoughts that are sour.
Untitled
When you're dead on the inside?
our feeling
I sincerely hope he'd die dignified, like he always was,

I mean, cycling past my friend's house without being able to stop the waterworks.
by these questions
coming from how you made me feel
deep inside a place -
do you wonder
do you remember us?
i may good with my words
not tonight,
that i don’t have to handle more chains
not good at act
but as the months go by we’ll both eventually change
now and never is a great time,
For what feels like an hour,
I would pretend I never met you,
To never experience the death of someone I call a brother or sister or my dad.
Because I'm too deep

it’s not like we knew each other anyways
you never knew me either
it's crazy

eventhough they are same
just like you and your pretend

where I don't even go
i heard that u are taken
So it's happening yet again,
Is there any point in trying to look alive,
those dry eyes won't leak any tears,

in learning of my life, my story
i never liked you
Remembering how he always cautioned me of this day -