Adolescent *******,
you were an accomplished one,
you left me abandoned and apparently I was a *****,
I was beaten and bruised because of your backstabbing, blabber mouth,
you didn't wear a caution sign.
You were cold and careless, you had a concrete heart,
I was damaged and you were dangerous.
I felt dead as a door nail while you were doubting my ability,
elaborating your evil words filling my empty heart and soul.
I was failing to live up to your expectations.
To you I was a filthy, flawed, female,
my heart was flimsy
and I apparently had false information about what was going on
and I was fortunate to have you in my life.
Waiting for you to get to your grave because what you did to me was grim and gruesome
and not once did you ever feel guilty for the haunting, half hearted stuff you did to me. you were heartless and hateful.
you had no hazard sign on you and so I was helpless trying to hide from your humiliating words but I was so hopeful that things could change,
but that was idiotic and impractical and I was imagining all these things.
You had a jagged heart,
you told me I was a jackpot but I was too juvenile to think that I wasn't,
maybe you were jealous and I was just full of joy.
I saw this Kaleidoscope of new colors, thinking maybe you were kindhearted, likable, but all of these loving things were limited and weren't long-term.
you weren't loyal but I knew this was a majestic thing only a magician could pull off.
your masculinity was marvelous,
almost motherly, and I was misguided and mortified,
for what was about to happen again is noteworthy.
I thought you were so nice
I was obedient to your commands,
oblivious to what was happening,
I was trying to be optimistic, open-minded to good thoughts
but the past ,periodically came up and I smelled her perfume on you,
it was pointless this pain kept occurring,
when was it going to be peaceful,
I thought everything was perfect.
still seeing if I qualify for your questionable test,
I was queasy because you were always quick to respond as I became quiet,
so now I was the reckless one in this rare love affair.
was it really reasonable to have me go through all of this
and during all this rough, Rotten and rigid love you never showed one sign of remorse.
I was suffering from your secondhand secrets,
you were selfish so I stood silent,
for this was several times a week and sleepless nights were scary and I shouldn't be surprised but I'm now safe and sane,
our love was tattered, tense and tough.
It was ugly, unacceptable and unhealthy,
you said you were unfinished but I was also useless.
it was unknown what was happening, unrealistic but when our house turned vacant after I was vulnerable because of your vain, vicious and violent words it was not visible but I was weak because of how your wicked, warped, whispering was saying how I  was worthless,
we were just in our youth and we were young.
I was zig zagging through our love, like a newly bought zipper. We
were the animals in the zoo without knowing...