I listen to the words you say
As if I were here to stay
This time is short but my life is long
You sing to me a beautiful song
My heart is torn between what I know and what I feel
Not wanting what I know to be real
I make excuses and play the games
But I have to go back from where I came
The world keeps spinning but I wish it would pause
For me to understand what was the cause
I am torn between the voice in my head
Listening to where I should be lead
Am I hearing what I want to hear
Or is it the voice whispering in my ear
I am so broken and have so many scars
Are my wounds turning into my bars
Keeping me trapped from trusting in you
Always wondering what is false and what is true
I'm scared of falling into a trap
Not wanting any more hurt to spread the gap
Between healing and being fully broken
These words are hard for me to have spoken
Admitting I am the cause for caution
Not wanting to hurt you from my objection
Scared that I'll make the wrong choice
By not listening to that voice
But it's so faint I can hardly make out
The words it's forming and trying to shout
My ears are deaf and I do not know
Which choice I should make and then follow
I think back to the story of Ruth
Will my life reflect her truth
I do not want to be the one who saved you
I do not want you to save me too
My eyes are turned to the One above
Wanting to understand how deep is His love
I am unable to show love on this earth
In a way you would understand it's worth
Where have your eyes turned upon
Onto a Hope that breaks the dawn
Or onto a moment that makes you smile
But then fades away after a while
Do not put your hope in me
I cannot make your life complete
I need you to understand these simple truths about love
That it's not found in a person but from above
I am trying to gaurd my heart
But I cannot imagine us apart
I need to know where your heart lies
When you tell me, look me in the eyes
In the truth of where love leads
Or in the wanting of selfish needs
I hope the best for this choice I make
For I know your heart is at stake
There is not much time to waste now
I'll be praying that I know how
To keep our hearts still intact
No matter how they may be attacked
Your words are gentle and so is your heart
Please know that there is Hope together or apart.