Falling Into My Death


Ayad Gharbawi

Tell me, in your eye
My own letters
That, yes
Are so wrong;
I know.

For, they were
Written only when I was
So inflated
By my manic intoxicated mind.

I tell you
This is:
My being!
The same Being that has
So gone astray;
Flying apart from
My unknowing Self

And I go on
Falling
Frighteningly so
For remember
Just how much
I fear heights
As I continue
Plunging
Into an unknown
That I far prefer
To end my life
Than to ever see through its end

For, you must understand
That I much need to experience
The Quicker End
I called
Suicide
Rather than go through
The Long End
I called
My Life