I can feel it
I can feel its waves licking the shores
Asking
Begging to be let in

It hurts
My chest is heavy and my body is weak
I feel snappish but slow
I don't deserve them

Him, it, life
But I breathe
Barely, as it hurts
as it always does now

Maybe the fact that no one will help
means that i don't need it
and the tears are prickling
dangerous as hell

as they could give away my position