why now?
why me?
what is it about me now?
last year, there was nothing
this year, is something
why now?
why me?
have i changed?
really changed that much?
i don’t think so
maybe, maybe so
i suppose so
i've learned and gained wisdom.
i’ve endured and gained strength
i’ve loved and gained heart
i’ve lost and gained humility
i’ve fought and gained scars
i’ve lived and gained character
that’s not what’s physical
that’s the internal, not the external
that’s not what people notice first
i traded glasses for contacts
i traded natural for makeup
i traded more money for less hair
that’s not that much of a change
that’s still a change
why now?
why me?
you wanna know something?
it’s strange
it’s weird
it’s foreign
i don’t like it
i don’t dislike it
is that wrong?
is that selfish?
does that make me selfish?
i can’t help but wonder
why now?
why me?
i don’t understand.
then again,
i’ve never understood
i mean
look at me
i'm not special
i’m average
average in everything
average face
average grades
average life
average thoughts
average me
i do wonder
I always wonder
why am i noticed?
why now?
why me?
i don’t know
so i ask.
why now?
why me?