(A dedication to someone whom I really love from the inner core of my heart.)
- ZEBA ZOARIAH AHSAN.
I really don’t know, when did I get my feelings for someone for the first time??
May be when I was 17???
Almost everyday I thanked the ALMIGHTY for not giving me such awkward feelings!
Almost everyday I thanked him for not making me look beautiful.
Almost everyday I asked him for more and more intelligence-which I think I was given….
I still remember those people,
Whom I saw falling in this ‘CUPIDITY’
Which I thought to be a real ‘STUPIDITY’!!!!!
I remember them telling me-“It feels heaven; it feels great!!!”
To which I always turned a deaf ear and a blind eye.
You cross any area of the learning temple
You get a chance to see these love birds holding each other’s hand.
What pleasure do they get by doing this??
And one fine day, when I got irritated as they teased me with a guy-
I simply said------
“Who? That captain? Cut it out. Does not suit my personality! Well; not my cup of tea!”
But I couldn’t believe that “THAT CAPTAIN” would really come into my life!!
He came as a stroke of wind,
The feelings were MAGICAL!!
And it made my life ever BEAUTIFUL!!
I with all the guts, said one Saturday midnight-
“CAPTAIN! You made me smile.
You made me realize what you mean for me.
I LOVE YOU!!”
To which he replied---
“Look girl!
It doesn’t matter me.
I don’t know why you love me?
Don’t mind, but I already have had heartbreak by loving that “LOVE” and I don’t wanna suffer any more.
So we are better off as FRIENDS! Please don’t mind!! ;)
Well! I was very happy with his reply.
Atleast I won’t get my “heartbreak”!
And then, from good friends,
We became close friends
To more and more close friends……..
And one fine day, he said-
“Actually speaking, you are the closest friend I have ever had.
Your friendship means a lot to me.
So don’t ever desert me…
I’ll miss you dear friend….”
Days passed by, when one day I heard my conscience telling me---
“Forget him!
Your family needs you.
You need to shine for them and make them feel proud of you.
Don’t forget your responsibilities!
WAKE UP! WAKE UP!!”
I did what my conscience had asked me to do and I started losing contact with my “CAPTAIN”…
I don’t know! But—
The feelings were awesome!
But it’s really hard to get over him.
I am trying my level best….
Still, just wanted to say-
I love you a lot CAPTAIN.
I LOVE YOU!!