Sometimes I get in this state of thinking where I'm not really thinking. I'll do everything in a flash and my brain will get warm and I won't remember anything I did that day. Everything just goes by really quickly. I'll stop and look in the mirror once in awhile and I will just see a person who does the same thing everyday. Someone who does everything like everyone else. Whats the point in that? Why can't I do things different and still be okay? Why cant I end each sentence with a 4 instead of a period? Why can't I eat the banana peel and throw out the banana without people thinking I'm crazy? I keep trying to think of reasons to continue living and I draw a blank, but then I try to think of reasons to die and I can't think of anything there either. It's endlessly pointless both ways.