Just feeling dead inside
in the scream of the night
where I can't control my mind
and see what's on the other side
I tried,  my dear
trust I did try
yet something about the empty sigh
I can't keep myself together tonight
I don't have tears to spare
nor a shuddering intake of breath
all I know is that I am not okay
like I told you so before
when it was 3 am
why is it I never know my way
once when I find it
it's whisked away
so I am left yearning after
the reminiscence of
a ghost failure