I cannot explain the dread I feel
when you look at me with those eyes.
As if I had failed.
Your admonished stare pounds me and my heart
sinks with the pressure.
The sheer weight of it all;
No normal person could thrive
(let alone, survive).
The knot in my throat,
stomach and mind is impossibly
taught.
Impossible.
That's all it is.
It is impossible for me to function
knowing I failed you.