but i know now that denying your existence in the depths of my heart
will do nothing but harm me.
i acknowledge everything that happened between us
and i will be honest and admit that i do still hold you in my heart.
but now that the chapter of my life with you in it is over,
i can only turn over a new page and
move on with my life.
accepting the changes you have made in me.
because hurricanes have nothing on you,
you swallowed me whole and spat me out like i was poison to your lips.
you are still a part of me.
but you are not the only part of me.
i am more than just in love with you.
i am in love with art
and i am in love with the honesty it conveys.
i’m in love with sunsets by the beach,
and watching the autumn leaves change.
i am in love with the cities i’ve been to
and the cities i’ve lived in.
i am passionate about more than just making you happy.
i am passionate about seeing the world
i am passionate about taking care of the one body i was given.
i drink more than just the words that poured out of your mouth,
i used to drink alcohol to forget you and
coffee to make up for the sleep i lost over you.
but now i drink all that and so much more just because i want to.
i no longer want to look good for you, i want to feel beautiful for me.
i am more than just your ex girlfriend,
i am my own person, and
i am a daughter, a sister, a cousin, a friend.
i am an artist, a writer, a reader.
there is a fire inside me and it would take more than a boy to put it out.
i will become good enough for myself
instead of beating myself up for not being
pretty, smart, funny, adventurous enough for you.
i will do things because they satisfy my soul
and not because they would satisfy yours
i will find a way to be complete without you