you ruined me do you know that? you ruined me do you even care? that ruin changed me people say that change is good it’s healthy for you i’m not sure about my change
do you want to know more? how you ruined me?
i was blind blind and stupid i fell for you i fell long and hard and the crash into reality ruined me i still have the scars on my heart scars that won’t heal do you want to see them? see the damage you caused? see the ruin?
the rest is a tad more complicated
you had a pair of rose-colored glasses you didn’t know what would happen you put those glasses on me you forced those glasses on me suddenly, i saw what you saw your world, your ideas, your opinions, your words never mine, only yours you didn’t know the glasses would ruin me you took me to places i’d never been you took me to places i didn’t want to be then the illusion shattered those rose-colored lenses splintered flying into a million pieces and some of those pieces flew into my eyes those pieces that traveled into my mind those pieces that ruined me
i’d like to say i carry you in my heart but i carry you in my mind instead
do you remember now? do you know when you ruined me? i do i’ll always know you’ve probably forgotten i’ll always remember when you ruined me it’s a hard thing to forget the moment when i was ruined
i had asked you a question an innocent harmless question or so i thought your answer, that was it that was what ruined me your answer ruined me those two words i asked you why you weren’t interested why you didn’t ask me out (is this starting to sound familiar?) those two words that small phrase it ruined me (you know those words?) you said “physically unattractive” i was physically unattractive to you you liked my mind but you hated my body you liked the soul but you hated the vessel
and that was the moment i crashed into reality the illusion shattered you ruined me
that was in june of 2014 those words still haunt me i’m ruined thanks to you something inside me changed i won’t ever be the same and i hate that i was ruined with deep scars on my heart scars that won’t heal
you want to know the ruin? i’m going to tell you anyway
i can’t look in a mirror without thinking of your words i don’t believe people when they compliment me if someone tells me i’m pretty i wonder what they see or if it’s me they’re looking at i don’t get it when i’m told i’m cute because i’ve been ruined
you ruined me do you know that? you ruined me do you even care? you ruined me do you remember now? i do i always will because i’ve been ruined