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Jan 2016
you
you ruined me
do you know that?
you ruined me
do you even care?
that ruin changed me
people say that change is good
it’s healthy for you
i’m not sure about my change

do you want to know more?
how you ruined me?

i was blind
blind and stupid
i fell for you
i fell long and hard
and the crash into reality ruined me
i still have the scars on my heart
scars that won’t heal
do you want to see them?
see the damage you caused?
see the ruin?

the rest is a tad more complicated

you had a pair of rose-colored glasses
you didn’t know what would happen
you put those glasses on me
you forced those glasses on me
suddenly, i saw what you saw
your world, your ideas, your opinions, your words
never mine, only yours
you didn’t know the glasses would ruin me
you took me to places i’d never been
you took me to places i didn’t want to be
then the illusion shattered
those rose-colored lenses splintered
flying into a million pieces
and some of those pieces flew into my eyes
those pieces that traveled into my mind
those pieces that ruined me

i’d like to say i carry you in my heart
but i carry you in my mind instead

do you remember now?
do you know when you ruined me?
i do
i’ll always know
you’ve probably forgotten
i’ll always remember
when you ruined me
it’s a hard thing to forget
the moment when i was ruined

i had asked you a question
an innocent harmless question
or so i thought
your answer, that was it
that was what ruined me
your answer ruined me
those two words
i asked you why you weren’t interested
why you didn’t ask me out
(is this starting to sound familiar?)
those two words
that small phrase
it ruined me
(you know those words?)
you said “physically unattractive”
i was physically unattractive to you
you liked my mind
but you hated my body
you liked the soul
but you hated the vessel

and that was the moment
i crashed into reality
the illusion shattered
you ruined me

that was in june of 2014
those words still haunt me
i’m ruined
thanks to you
something inside me changed
i won’t ever be the same
and i hate that
i was ruined
with deep scars on my heart
scars that won’t heal

you want to know the ruin?
i’m going to tell you anyway

i can’t look in a mirror
without thinking of your words
i don’t believe people
when they compliment me
if someone tells me i’m pretty
i wonder what they see
or if it’s me they’re looking at
i don’t get it
when i’m told i’m cute
because i’ve been ruined

you ruined me
do you know that?
you ruined me
do you even care?
you ruined me
do you remember now?
i do
i always will
because i’ve been ruined
Written by
jenna elizabeth  26/F/dallas, oregon
(26/F/dallas, oregon)   
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