Since I've been gone, I've been trying not to fall in love with you.

I've been trying to forget the fallen stars in your eyes and the battle scars on your body.

I've been trying to forget your touch which gave me comfort and the warm feeling of your breath against my neck.

I've been trying to forget the outline of your body and the soft touch of your lips when you kissed me.

I've been trying to forget how we held hands and how you used to hold my thigh.

I've been trying to forget how you know I hate that you smoke, but how you love to click your Marlboro cigarettes.

I've been trying to forget how you look when you sleep and how you flinch when you're sad.

I've been trying to forget how your whole body shakes when you cry and how you held me.

I've been trying to forget how you laugh and how it always makes me smile.

But I haven't been able to get these things off my mind. I must already be in love with you.

-F.T.