Life, friends, is boring. We must not say so.* - JB
My inner resources have collapsed. I am officially in a rut. I am terminally bored. It's like dying over and over again but never quite getting the job done. A strong change is called for. Perhaps I'll cut off my head, take up ballet or start a hedge fund. I could take a road trip if my car wasn't 240,000 miles toward dead and it wasn't winter and if I had any money. Pawn shops don't pay well for poems. Sadly, all those conditions prevail. Which means my chances of escaping boredom are limited, which is boring. I realize boredom is my fault. In my case, it is the San Andreas fault. If I owned boots, I could pull myself up by my bootstraps, but I don't. I wonder if the Buddha was ever bored. All he ever did was sit around. If so, perhaps I'm really not bored. Maybe this is really enlightenment. That's a truly terrifying thought. During the war life was boring but dangerous. Sad thing to pine for war. Guess I'll just surrender to this redundant, monotonous splendor. If I wake up tomorrow, things may improve. If I don't wake up, they surely will.