i'll never forget that.
the darkness, the silhouette of your large, hulking body illuminated by the screen
the tangled sheets, a mess at the center of your bed
shivering
my clothes on the floor
afraid
your voice
quivering with tears and rage
growing louder, hurting my head
wishing i could cover my ears and eyes, shrink into dust and get swept away
your expression, that of a wild and exotic animal
fascinating
but i was so scared of you
crawling on the cold floor towards my jeans
like treading through water, my legs made of lead
you screamed and screamed NOBODY HAS EVER HURT ME AS MUCH AS YOU HAVE
i cried
hysterical sobs and trembling hands
you stare at me, breathing noisily
and your eyes are so filled with painful and seething hatred, but they plead with me
please don't cry. please, please.
"this whole thing was a mistake"
slipping between the small crack in the door and into the thin air of the early morning
nothing is the same