writing down on paper
thoughts i can't say aloud
can't think aloud i don't
have control over my mind
my pencil, i don't know what
words are going to come out
a labyrinth, a maze through
the darkness of my mind
what emotions am i
feeling i don't know
anger sad hate love
anxiety lost empty
hopeful depressed bastardized
so so lost confused and
urge to write and urge to
feel, i want to get it
out, a thorn, 12 inches in
my heart, how is it beating
how am i going how do 
i live like this, transitions
change, people spiraling out
of control and i don't know
what to do, helpless
this is just the beginning
and my hand can't write
fast enough...