Nov 2011
Eyes closed, but I awaken
In the bed where my soul was stolen time after time
After a long night of tears and heartbreak
And turning to you.
Eyes closed, but the knowledge,
The sense that you’re lying right here, but a breath away,
Is the only comfort necessary,
A familiarity I feel I should have known before.
Eyes open to you looking back at me.
Pull me closer, my protection, my friend,
Tear stains on your shoulder.
Tonight I take back my heart for someone new.*
Eyes closed ‘cause it was a dream a year in the making
In the bed where I lay alone for the last six months,
Searching for myself in this tragic, numb world
Outside of what I’ve always known and supposedly wanted.
Eyes closed wanting to relive the moment a bit longer –
Just a little bit longer, please, I beg –
I don’t want to go back to who I was,
But I don’t want to leave where I’ve been.
Eyes open, I awaken from my vivid memory
Of the night I started to fall for you,
Where strength and weakness collided to make fireworks
In the best possible way.
No matter how much I try to control it,
No matter how happy I’m able to make myself,
You run through my veins –
You always run through
Every
Vein.
They are not you –
The ones who show interest,
The ones I grow fond of,
The allegedly perfectly wonderful ones.
They don’t make my heart drop,
They don’t feel my pain,
They don’t have the eyes that take me away,
They don’t raise their eyebrows
Or **** their head side like an adorable puppy
When they say hi.
They don’t feel depressed, or angry, or stubborn,
They don’t hesitate to tell me what they feel,
They don’t harbor stubbornness or prefer to be lone.
They’re here, and nice, and perfectly great.
But they are not you,
And they’ll never be you,
And why, please tell me,
After such a long time
Do I still feel this? –
And why, please tell me,
After such a long time
Do I want what I know must be a lost cause?
And why, please tell me,
After such a long time
Has nothing diminished or faltered or left?
…Why, please tell me, after such a long time?
…Why, please tell me, after such a long time?
In the bed where my soul was stolen time after time
After a long night of tears and heartbreak
And turning to you.
Eyes closed, but the knowledge,
The sense that you’re lying right here, but a breath away,
Is the only comfort necessary,
A familiarity I feel I should have known before.
Eyes open to you looking back at me.
Pull me closer, my protection, my friend,
Tear stains on your shoulder.
Tonight I take back my heart for someone new.*
Eyes closed ‘cause it was a dream a year in the making
In the bed where I lay alone for the last six months,
Searching for myself in this tragic, numb world
Outside of what I’ve always known and supposedly wanted.
Eyes closed wanting to relive the moment a bit longer –
Just a little bit longer, please, I beg –
I don’t want to go back to who I was,
But I don’t want to leave where I’ve been.
Eyes open, I awaken from my vivid memory
Of the night I started to fall for you,
Where strength and weakness collided to make fireworks
In the best possible way.
No matter how much I try to control it,
No matter how happy I’m able to make myself,
You run through my veins –
You always run through
Every
Vein.
They are not you –
The ones who show interest,
The ones I grow fond of,
The allegedly perfectly wonderful ones.
They don’t make my heart drop,
They don’t feel my pain,
They don’t have the eyes that take me away,
They don’t raise their eyebrows
Or **** their head side like an adorable puppy
When they say hi.
They don’t feel depressed, or angry, or stubborn,
They don’t hesitate to tell me what they feel,
They don’t harbor stubbornness or prefer to be lone.
They’re here, and nice, and perfectly great.
But they are not you,
And they’ll never be you,
And why, please tell me,
After such a long time
Do I still feel this? –
And why, please tell me,
After such a long time
Do I want what I know must be a lost cause?
And why, please tell me,
After such a long time
Has nothing diminished or faltered or left?
…Why, please tell me, after such a long time?
…Why, please tell me, after such a long time?
