i would rather not
think about you being
touched and kissed and loved
by someone who is
completely unworthy to do so
who can't even bring you to
fulfillment
who doesn't know just how
you like to be touched
who draws from you those
quiet breaths and loud moans
who is selfish and impatient
and more concerned
with their pleasure than yours

i would rather not
think about these things
but now that i know
they are all i can think about