Nov 2011
If time could freeze I would hold the breeze and stop the leaves from falling.
If time could freeze it would be you and me together in autumn.
But time doesn't freeze, autumn has gone winter is here and you aren't.
You aren't here, with me, you're everywhere and nowhere. My mind imagines you're happy. It imagines your smile. More often than not though it imagines your with someone else. But on the really bad days, I mean the really bad days it imagines your touch and those are the hardest days. What about the days when I look at my phone and I see her name but I imagine it's yours and I think about the conversations we used to have.
But if time could freeze I would hold the breeze and stop the leaves from falling.
Before the moment passed where I let you go, I would have taken an eternity to contemplate life without you.
But I wouldn't have needed an eternity just 2 days.
See the first day I would have made it through, but my night fall, I would want you close to me, next to me.
By day 2 I would be missing our conversation the laughs and situations that we always found ourselves in. So what then do I do on the third day when I cannot say I love you?
I press play, and resume life and tell you I love you and I'm sorry. I'm sorry for the pain. I'm sorry for the mistakes and even though I'm battling a personal demon, I should have let you be what you wanted to be, my rib. We'd do everything together. So I wouldn't need to freeze time or hold the breeze and stop the leaves from falling.
If time could freeze it would be you and me together in autumn.
But time doesn't freeze, autumn has gone winter is here and you aren't.
You aren't here, with me, you're everywhere and nowhere. My mind imagines you're happy. It imagines your smile. More often than not though it imagines your with someone else. But on the really bad days, I mean the really bad days it imagines your touch and those are the hardest days. What about the days when I look at my phone and I see her name but I imagine it's yours and I think about the conversations we used to have.
But if time could freeze I would hold the breeze and stop the leaves from falling.
Before the moment passed where I let you go, I would have taken an eternity to contemplate life without you.
But I wouldn't have needed an eternity just 2 days.
See the first day I would have made it through, but my night fall, I would want you close to me, next to me.
By day 2 I would be missing our conversation the laughs and situations that we always found ourselves in. So what then do I do on the third day when I cannot say I love you?
I press play, and resume life and tell you I love you and I'm sorry. I'm sorry for the pain. I'm sorry for the mistakes and even though I'm battling a personal demon, I should have let you be what you wanted to be, my rib. We'd do everything together. So I wouldn't need to freeze time or hold the breeze and stop the leaves from falling.
