You brought out the best of me
but now your no longer here
to instruct me
from my rights
and wrongs.
but everything you did felt so right;
I guess I just was blinded
by your imperfections.
I tried to tell you how much I loved you
without saying
those three forbidden words;
"I love you,"
but you were too busy
paying attention to my actions
not the meanings behind them.
I wanted to pull you into me,
the way each kissed we pulled away from
left us wanting more.
I wanted the image of me
laughing or looking genuinely happy
to burn your mind
in all of the worst ways possible.

Instead I'm the one who lives
with the feeling
of drowning in you.
Without knowing it
you pulled me into
the depths of you,
where each laugh
we shared came from.
Every night I close my eyes
I see the burning image
of your smile
and it drives me mad.
While I was trying to give you
the feeling of
dying in my arms
I lost myself
and most importantly;
you.