my life kept going, I had all necessary
But I had nothing
I was a slave to myself
But I didn't know who i was

And it went on for so long
It became so ingrained
I can't find my way home;
I never had one

I long to feel happiness;
And it came in bursts
So intense that anything else felt low
I was better to stay down

Don't rise your head boy
Don't dream those wild dreams
You can't reach them
Time is running out

Love has shattered the fragile glass pieces of my heart
A catastrophe that will leave it bleeding until I rest

But still I want to be loved
When I know it will be pain that I feel
Just for those few moments of elation
I'll risk it all

A shock to my emotions
A motor action that leaves me feeling broken
The fresh ache of troubled times in the past
Rising it's ugly head to remind me
You should be alone in this world

Your ******* pathetic
You cry
You weep
Your fickle
So greedy for recognition that you end up alone in its pursuit
But your too weak to achieve anything
It's a bleak path ahead
Maybe I should be done dead
Maybe I should run when I tread
But my guts are filled with lead

Poison
The only escape
Intoxicate
Feel chemically induced happiness
It's the only type you know
Vacate the twisting hell below

Come back I would scream in my mind
But I'm still here
Feeling severe
Feeling no fear of death
But the world is so beautiful
It's the curiosity that keeps me alive

And yea it might rain on the plain
But pain is my main
Like direct rain to the brain
Shame

I used to be so bright
Brimming with potential
Now there is no light
Demented alllways mental

Now I'm just a mindless scout
Trying to sniff sensuous out
Try to find out what I was meant to be about
Now I'm just shouting it out

And like my tenth year my tenth bout
I haven't learnt anything apart from what emptiness is about.
I haven't deserved anything that I've done nothing about
I haven't felt perturbed to find what the depth of my love is about

**** it I'd spray
Careless disarray
I cared more than you could know more than words could say

Let them know about it, help them grown around it
Nah **** that I just keep it in
Force that smile, push that grin
Be the underdog
You'll show them how to win
Been that underdog and now man wants in
Seen the city smog now the air grows thin
Cutting through the fog erase that sin
You gotta change to win

Change is hard
Daily grind is already feeling ****** heavy
Could do without the extra strain
Chat to me but no you dont really get me
Go against the grain