like the pencil tracing circles down the margins, I can feel myself spiraling into your arms when I know this can only end one of two ways: I get exactly what I want, Or I spend the night bleeding into my pillow, Spilling guts and months of self-pity and doubt Into your innocent half-dreamt up hands The plans that I build in my brain How the night will go How my face and your face will do something like embrace, maybe even face The feelings I've erased from your consciousness - Like a pencil in the margins, I am not worth grading. This is not worth debating The night will end the way you planned it The way I never want and always get Hot, steamy, long, and wet my face buried in your indifference.