somedays being myself feels like reaching for the baseball lost behind the thorn bush needles ready and willing to ***** on my arm or like untangling hair that's been soaked through with honey every well-meant movement only doing more harm
what's worse is I don't know what i'm reaching for - whether the ball is really mine or how my hair's supposed to look i wrote the book of my own life about someone else.
somedays I look in the mirror and I wonder, "How did you get here?" as if someone else can give me that answer when I know it's sitting in my stomach turning when I hear an old song or I smell a new scent one that's meant to remind me things can still be good even if some things stay bad.
I try to tell people that I'm sad and they try to tell me what I can do. I just wonder whether you still think I really could've helped you, too.
Somedays I try to look myself in the mirror and I tell her, "We are going to be friends." Even if I can't make me real, I'll make me mine.