Today is the first day back,
From what seemed like hell,
Sitting there trying not to cry as you,
Acted like i wasn't alive,
Like my name didn't ring a bell,
You ignored me,
I was dead and gone to you.

Oh dear god i wish i were through,
I'm sick of wanting,
And wasting my days,
Wishing and dreaming,
That we could go back and make a do-over,
Change the past,
Fix my mistake....

My biggest issue isn't you,
It's not what i did,
My biggest issue is...
I'm kicking myself,
While i'm down,
Because i think...

If i had waited a few more weeks,
Or even just changed my ways,
Then i'd be-able to be there for you,
It's obvious your not ok,
I know something's wrong,
And its killing me to know i can't do a **** thing to fix it....
I can't make you smile,
Or laugh,
I can't re assure you it'll all be okay....
I can't even make you happy....

I'd **** to hear your laugh just one more time,
To hear you're voice talking to me,
To see you smile back at me,
To catch you even looking at me.....
For all these things,
Although they may sound silly and small,
I'd still go to the end of the world to make them happen......

But i know that'll never happen,
My dreams and wishes are such a tease,
All they are doing is breaking me down,
So it's time i stop wanting,
Stop wasting my time waiting for you,
I can't cope with the pain and guilt,
And hopeless longing...

I'm over it all and it's got to end,
But every time i see your face,
Look into your brown eyes,
Every nerve in my body is set on fire,
My skin begins to burn,
And i know there's still a spark.

My heart...
It still beats for you,
It's burning because of you,
And everyday it explodes with passion when i see you,
Setting off fireworks in my stomach,
Making me cry because how much i miss you,
And need you,
And want to be with you...