when i look at you, i see varieties of magenta: i see blood-stained bedsheets, martial laws, lack of leverage, pale skin with blue veins popping out in a coquettish manner, flames spewing out from lava, fault lines, the first chakra located at the base of the spine, a constant threat of losing choke hold on the utopia i've built from scratch, horror movie shrieks, regret, so much regret, panic attacks, faces red with tears streaming like waterfalls, and the ultra violence one of the seven deadly sins bring: wrath. what i don't admit is that, even when i look at the thing i fear the most in the eyes, i see the passion, sensitivity, and love that have shriveled up and died from time.