It’s been 2 months
And I can’t do it
Living without you
It’s something I could never do
I spend my days coping
Work, food, sleep, work, food, sleep
A never ending routine
Our life was never routine
There isn’t a day that passes that I don’t mourn for you
For the loss of you
The loss of our love
The loss of me
I don’t know what to do
Sitting here with this bottle of pills
I don’t know what to do
You’re picture on my desk
I don’t know what to do
Maybe if I were dead
I’d see you again
But then again
What if I don’t?
My mind races
Heart beat quickens
You would tell me I’m being ridiculous
You would tell me to stop
But, I was never one to follow directions
Now was I?
It’s what you loved about me
I went against the grain
Well now I don’t
I think
And think
And think…
Till death do us part
I said
We said
I was never one to follow directions
My last thought before the room began to spin
I see your face before my world goes dark again