A battered heart
Laid bare by a storm
With gnats and vultures
Picking at the outer layers of skin
How can one expect to heal?

My lungs, covered with tar
Feel much the same
But we are both still breathing
Still living
Still healing
Still imploding
Barely staying afloat in the waters of a swelling ocean

Wretched persons
How dare you hurt my love
Who can’t shake the feeling
Of being torn apart from the inside
Trust me love
I too feel lost, unloved, confused
This isn't how I envisioned it!

I pictured love and happiness
Fulfilling my every desire!
Hurt escaping from my grasp
Love flowing freely from my heart… To yours
From yours, to mine
I imagine loves everlasting divinity
Gushing forth like the great rivers and waterfalls in this world
What I got instead, was a light trickle
Like a dying stream in the middle of a desert.

Forsaken, forlorn
I throw myself at your mercy
That you may find what you seek
The strength that resides within,
The strength I see.

For I am a maggot
A parasite
A fiend
I search for life stronger than mine
And feed off it
But now I realize I’m neither of those things.
A saint in disguise
Trying to play the demon.

I know when to tread softly
To move gently
To wait till hearts can mend
But then, I realized that there is nothing to mend
Or to heal.
Incomplete from the start
Cast aside
Unbreakable hearts
Succumbing to the infinity before us
Feelings fading
I gasp for one last statement
Before we lose anything more
My heart screams out into a cold night saying:
I
Love
You