If you were to search my bedroom,
don't expect to find any treasures.
Besides my bed you are likely to find
a years worth of empty pharmaceuticals
to cure a life of ill pleasures.
If you were to search my bedroom,
don't expect that you will piece the puzzle together.
Because the reason I am,
the way that I am,
is not because the pieces are jumbled,
but because some never existed at all.
If you were to search my bedroom,
don't expect to find me there -
for that is a life that I left behind.
Why you may ask?
I'll pick you a flower I planted inside my head,
and we'll see how long you can bear
its potency.