Write in stanzas. Think in stanzas. Speak in stanzas. **** your routine. Sleep less. Go to work drunk. Yell at inanimate objects. Yell with inanimate objects. Fly your mother to San Francisco (coach) and watch the house for her, the dogs, the child, the drunk. She is your mother.
You do not like your job. Spend your days beneath an apple tree and spend your workdays eating apples in any given weather. Lie on the floor of your bedroom belly-flat and smell the carpet beneath you, all dead flakes of skin and dog fur, sinew strand of hair, black dotsβtar or shoe-gum or something other.
Think on your place. Reach to the left, your side table with glass of water and lampshade. Feel the hilt, small knife for your pocket, small pocket. Free the blade, feel the grooves, gold and blacked-brushed blade you bought with a flask, a set, two tiny commodities that may serve you well in the wild or a shopping mall, what ever little evils exist away from your bedroom with its television and soft blankets, slow mortal shuffle and modicum.
Stop and breathe. Feel the heart in its always-patter. Know it will stop. Not fret, no, only knowing.