ever since your dad stopped teaching you how to skip stones
and started making your heart skip a beat in fear whenever he came close
you've been looking for a way to stop feeling so unloved
but let me tell you sweetheart, his voice isn't an escape.
just because he tells you he wants to ******* raw doesn't mean
he won't leave you with wrists slit just as ******* raw,
and it certainly doesn't mean he wants to love you.
i know you haven't felt present in three years,
but i can tell you for sure
you won't feel any less like an empty house
when he tells you he'll fill you up.
just because you're both broken on the inside
doesn't mean
your pieces are going to fit,
how many times can i tell you that?
you need someone whole to help you put yourself back together
not a boy so set on destroying himself
that you met him in the mental hospital.
not a boy so set in his ways he tells you
to stick your finger down your throat.
you need someone whole, not someone to hand you a hammer and show you how hard to hit
to
make
everything
shatter.