How masochistic
To love someone
Who wont have you

It will never be
Not beacause we want different things
Not because you wont have it or I wont have it
It wont be
Because it just wont be

So do I sit and wait for something else?
Or do I focus on other things
Hoping that it’ll happen on its own?

But then
What if by focusing on other things,
I inadvertedly deprive myself of
having that one thing I’ve always wanted?

This thing I want
It cannot be
If just by the fact
That I want it
Someone else has to want it too
It’s a team effort

And maybe, because of this
Im better off doing things
Alone.
Maybe because of this
There is an I in team
There is a me
But there is no we
No us
No them
Just me

Maybe we do choose
Our own destiny
Maybe
We choose without intention
Maybe our destiny
Who and what will be
We choose not by choosing what we want
But by choosing our only option

And maybe our only option is to settle
Settle for the next best thing
Well why's it so wrong to expect the best
Save for being let down
Maybe all I have is the expectation for the best
Maybe the best can’t happen because I expect it

Maybe what the team needs is to stop expecting to win
And at the end of the game
The team looks at the me, the we, the us, the them

And realizes