Nov 2015
What word should i carve into my own skin?
Into my lungs? My brain? My heart?
I want it to fit me but not too much because I am so so scared that it will fit me too well
because it will encompass all the things I am so self conscious about
I want it to be hateful because it will feel real but if it is too hateful then even I would consider myself weak
I want it to be loving because then I will look at it and feel strong but if it is then I will be far too full of myself to even consider my faults
I don't even want to do it because it will hurt but I do because nothing will feel better than the pain
It was all my fault
Into my lungs? My brain? My heart?
I want it to fit me but not too much because I am so so scared that it will fit me too well
because it will encompass all the things I am so self conscious about
I want it to be hateful because it will feel real but if it is too hateful then even I would consider myself weak
I want it to be loving because then I will look at it and feel strong but if it is then I will be far too full of myself to even consider my faults
I don't even want to do it because it will hurt but I do because nothing will feel better than the pain
It was all my fault
If this ends up being my suicide note I dont know how anyone will ever read it because **** it if this was in my own name
I guess I kind of want them to know how much pain I was in but at the same time I dont want them to be hurt by me
I guess I just want to be glorified once
I guess I kind of want them to know how much pain I was in but at the same time I dont want them to be hurt by me
I guess I just want to be glorified once
