i try to scream,
but nothing comes out.

i try to cry quietly,
as not to wake anyone,
but loud
heaving
sobs come out.

i try to mask my pain,
but sometimes that mask,
that guard,
it falls down,
weak from standing strong all the time.

people think i cant be harmed,
im a strong woman,
but im not...
i let them keep thinking that though.

i dont like people to know me,
my emotions,
they are for me,
and you,
but you left.

so now,
my emotions are not allowed to roam free,
they are caged and trapped,
not allowed to move,
unless everyone is asleep.

thats when i try and scream,
and rein them in,
but i make no noise,
and they come flooding out
in the form of sobs and anger.

they like the night...